Tuesday, July 18, 2023

Weekly Letter: Hiding in the clouds

  *Weekly Letter is the letter I include in my weekly yoga studio newsletter.*

A few years ago, my friend was telling us about working in Tacoma, WA for a week. He had heard about the amazing views of the mountains, but it had been rainy and cloudy all week and visibility was low.

The very last day he was there, the clouds shifted and he realized he had been driving his commute with what would have been a perfect view of Mt. Rainer all week.

‘It was there the whole time.’ he finishes.

Our practice can hide from us behind clouds of distraction, but it’s really right there, ready for you. Part of the practice, and probably the hardest part, is to remove the clouds so you can be fully present in your practice.

Stay Clear,

~C

Monday, July 17, 2023

My First Bar: Two Main Lounge

Two Main Lounge

O2’s

Two

Whatever you want to call it. This place I loved had many names.

The 5 investors spent around $10,000 to have a company come up with a name and image for the space. In the end, they named the bar after the address, 2 N. Main Street. The space sits on a busy corner in Downtown and doesn’t come to a 90 degree angle where the walls come together, but looks as though it was shaved off. Possibly the former location of the front doors? At one point it was the Parkland Library, but I don’t know how long ago that was. They painted the exterior a dark brown and put a large silver zero and number two on the corner, thus solidifying any certainty of what the place was supposed to be called. Even our invoices all called us varying degrees of Two Main.

The inside of the space had a large rectangular bar in the middle of the room. Kinda like theatre in the round, which made restocking on a busy night a pain. The only opening behind the bar was at the back of the room and in a 6000 square foot space, it meant a lot of walking. There were 5 stations behind the bar, most of the time, we didn’t use them all until a Friday or Saturday night, but on really busy nights, we would run 6 bartenders. Cocktail servers varied, but usually we had 2-3 running and the small kitchen cooked especially good food that was not typical of a bar, items like coconut shrimp and chicken satay. We didn’t bother with pretzels, but splurged for Gardetto’s. The back bar was beautiful, the bottles were backlit and there were 2 long rows of 12 taps on each long side of the bar. The taps ran down to the basement into a cooler the size of a larger studio apartment. Above the back bar there was a chandelier made of glass and wire, very modern. The only tv in the bar was attached to the square pillar that the bar was attached to on one side.

The entire bar was wood, but the top was a black flecked quartz that coordinated with the black metal on the chairs circling the entire thing. Stainless steel round tables lined the narrow West side of the room, with light pine and stainless stools. Low tables went on the East side where you could more easily fit a group. The front and back of the bar were always changing. A mix of high and low tables, olive green micro-suede arm chairs and matching chaise lounge chairs softened the industrial feel that could easily overwhelm you. Soft purple curtains hung off the square pillars and parts of the walls to create more softness and separation. The floor a stained concrete was fortunately easy to clean.

On the East side, the wall cut in a bit to make a nook for the DJ booth and dance floor. During the week, jazz was played or performed with a steady rotation of musicians. On the weekends, which kicked off on Thursdays, hip-hop was spun…and really spun, this was before iPods and computers took over. The DJ’s would unload their turn tables and crates of records. Our DJ’s would travel to Chicago and farther to find new music and for a time, it was a time where you would become familiar with a song before the radio had picked it up (50 Cent’s In da Club was one).

Our dress code was black and grey. I don’t remember what I wore when I started, but I figured out pretty quickly to play with my clothes a bit more. The girls who worked there were beautiful and for the most part, very kind, but they all were able to allow their identity to shine through the muted colors. And I started to buy things to wear that I never would have, had I not developed some of their confidence to play with clothes and accessories.

I probably worked with Chris the most in the beginning. She had a large 5 tattoo on her arm, and was prone to some significant mood swings. We got on ok, but you knew it didn’t take much for her to switch gears quickly. I had the most fun cocktailing in the beginning with Val. She was very lively and I could tell a lot of people really enjoyed her and her sense of humor. Working with Val meant the night was going to go quickly and there was going to be a lot of singing! I also learned pretty quicky to mark my drink so I wouldn’t confuse ours. I never really enjoyed Raspberry Stoli and drinking it by surprise was…well a surprise. The first time, Val saw me do it and started howling with laughter at my expression. No one really cared if you drank while you worked, as long as you didn’t appear to be drunk at work. I honestly don’t know how may did, because I didn’t care. We didn’t police it like that. People were trusted to be a version of a grown up and as long as you stayed within some pretty wide parameters, you were fine.

It was the first time I was ever given so much space in a job to do the job. It was also the first time I ever felt accepted for being me. I was a young, naïve, white girl working in a bar who’s clientele was primarily black. There are few places before or after where I felt so loved and accepted.

The people I worked with were sincere and had rich personalities. They were all well educated and had lots of different interests. There was a warmth to being around them all that was indescribable. After work, we would sit in the back in the dark on the couches and have a shift drink or two. Often 2-3 of us cuddled together on each of the sofas sharing shift stories and laughs. The large windows and semi-busy intersection made the visibility into the bar easy, but we were good at staying tucked into the shadows and slipping out the back when it was time to go home.

It was in the calm after close that you got to know people. You learned what your coworkers drank, who they were after the rush when a little tiredness set it with the alcohol. Occasionally, we might all decide to go to get food at a 24hr diner, but more often we would get together on a Sunday for margaritas and tacos as Dos Reales.

This was my first bar family. We celebrated milestones together (still do), mourned loss, some lived and loved together. And we still talk. Over 20 years ago and we still keep up with each other.

Tuesday, July 11, 2023

Weekly Letter: Taking up the ether

  *Weekly Letter is the letter I include in my weekly yoga studio newsletter.*

Pulling the curtains closed on the main level of the house, the canvas black with red, yellow and green flowers scrolling over the fabric. The living room darkens and feels like the fall when the weather cools and things grow a little more quiet outside. I flip on the flame to the fake fireplace and adjust the pillows on the couch to settle in. Finnegan takes his queue and flops down on the rug by Levi’s feet. Pretty soon the timers on my candles will click on and the cozy scene will be set to watch a movie.

We don’t do this a lot in the summer, but its been an odd couple weeks and we are hoping to change the energy. Sometimes tucking in for an evening is just what we need to change it. Much like how your yoga teacher tries to create a calming atmosphere in your class, extending that to the home can make an impact.

Samkhya philosophy describes the basic element of ether as the space we take up beyond our own physical space. Think about how you can sense the shift in your home when other people are present, or the feel of someone standing a little too close, etc. Ether can also describe the feeling you get when your community is impacted-so this concept can become very broad and overwhelming the bigger you feel it.

When a person is drained, sometimes shifting the energy into a smaller space is the practice of not letting it overwhelm or consume you. Which is what Levi and I were doing. We may not always have the words or concepts for it, but when we need to tuck-in, we make our world the size of our living room (with occasional pop to the kitchen) so the next day, we can be ready for the things beyond those 4 walls.

Get cozy,

~C

Warning: Human Writing. Is it ok to be ME now?

 She asks as she peeks her head out of her home. 

Jesus, it's been around 10 years since I regularly posted here. I've missed it. I've missed you. I made some friends here and then, well, maybe I got lost a little. Don't you think we have to get lost a bit to find ourselves? Yeah, me too. And I lose myself regularly. It's a good thing I'm not famous. I wouldn't have survived it. 

The funny thing is, I keep getting called back over here, but I didn't know how to 'brand' myself. Who am I? Ten years ago, the blogging world was more narrow, you were supposed to 'stay in your lane', if you talked about food, that's all anyone wanted to hear from you. And I struggled with that, because I had more to say on more topics. So does that make this a lifestyle blog, Carmen? 

I don't fucking know. It makes it a human writing a blog. I want an avenue to write and here it is. Maybe there will be things you find interesting, funny, helpful. But honestly, if you don't ever read this, I don't care. I just need an outlet to write. And pretending there is someone to say it to helps more than plugging things into Word.

I will say, my students have been a source of encouragement to come back to this. I put a little letter in my weekly newsletter and their kind words have helped keep me going. Helped remind me how much I love being here. So if any of you are reading this, thank you for that. And thank you for thinking I still have something interesting to say. One of these days, maybe we'll all get wise and realize I don't, but I'll still be writing to the void. I don't want to put this down again.